what's the point of being the smartest?

ive found out that most of my UBD-ians are now in Europe, resuming their clinical years. Some got places in Notts, Sot and St Georges. It is definitely a pain in the ass to be seeing them posting the pictures, showing happy faces on how exciting it is to be far far away in the English countryside.

Of course, it used to be one of my dreams to be studying in St George's. I did apply to it and the other unis in UK for medicine but unfortunately, i only got a place to do Pharmacy in School of Pharmacy, London. I managed to get an interview from Southampton and honestly, it was the most horrible interview i had ever done. I wasnt prepared for it and i did not show enough passion for the career. i truly regret of this trial. Despite the failures, i however was given another chance in Medicine to go for another interview in East Anglia uni. Unfortunately, my dad made me to let it go since i had already got this offer in CUCMS.

Other than that, most of my friends also managed to get places in UK to do courses that they enjoy. To date, none of my JIS classmates are studying in Malaysia except for Jon who is also now in Manchester, enjoying his clinical years after spending 3 years here in IMU. So now, i am basically, friendless, except for the fact that i still have Ashwin. Some other friends of mine, are studying in Aussies and only few in the States.

The sad fact is that, i used to perform way better than these people and yet, I am the one who is left in Malaysia, with this sad uni of mine. They say that it does not really matter where you study but it relies solely on your attitude. I agree to that fact but hey, this is going to be my Uni's life. I will be the one who will reminisce about it in the next 20 years. Surely, i want it to be the most exciting part of my life. People say that uni's life will be the best part of it but to date, i do not think so! Unfortunately, im stuck in here, surrounded with people i can barely trust and who take me as a different creature just because i am not like them.

maybe this is the reason why i am not happy in the first place.