tomorrow

patience is all that we need. tomorrow will be a much better day, Insyaallah.

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an electron within a sea

have you ever been in a situation where there are tonnes of people surrounding u and yet you are lonely? well, this is where i am right now. feels like a fucking loser but oh well. be strong Nani. this is one phase of it.

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two becomes one

ever since last year, im surrounded with friends whom were getting hitched. what made things worse was the release of the "fairytale wedding of the year video" by one of the Malaysia's famous businessman's daughter last year and the global coverage of the Royal Wedding of Kate and William 2 months back.

honestly, with all the madness, it did make me feel as if i am left behind with the trails and sometimes, the fact that i am still single, i feel "expired" though i am only 23 years old! since i am also in a relationship, i cant help but to question when is my turn going to be?

looking on the bright side, i am however glad the fact that none of my closest girl friends have initiated this path. at least the pressure is less, we have each other to look up for and we do not feel left out.

apart from that, i think i can relate to men better when it comes to this situation. i can now understand why they hate it when their girlfriends' found out that his male buddies are getting married. the girls will be envious and will start to question the poor boyfriends about their turn. i have met some of the girls who became quite obsessed to get married and in the end, pressuring their partners and get disappointed after finding out that they dont have the same views on it.

well, i used to have different stands on this matter. i was up for it since i thought how different could it be if i were to get married now since i already felt that we are more or less like a married couple afterall. we spend most of our possible time and do various activities together. furthermore, i thought getting married would enable us to save more money since we will be able to live together, and hence, cutting down other unnecessary expenses and finally be happy together.

however, i realised that the reasons why people are rushed into marriage is because of peer pressure and also because they are lured to think that marriage = a wedding ceremony + eternal happiness. i forgot that we are living in a real world and we cannot afford to overlook the baggages that it carries such as responsibilities, having the needs to satisfy your parents and the in-laws, the sacrifices and having children.

hence, with all these facts, i feel that i am in no rush for this commitment. i am only 23 years old; my parents got married at the age of 26-27. so, i better be making full use of my available single years, concentrate on my careers and plan on my futures. furthermore, I'm sure God has already planned out everything for me. Just have faith in Him.

Surprise surprise!

a happy betty with a sad rat.

disgusting right?

not to worry! i've changed the bedsheet!

at the same time, i can't help but to feel appreciated by this gift.

i think betty wants to thank me for all the kindness! KEKEKEKE

Godfather episode 2

woke up today with another reenactment of Godfather famous scene.

i woke up quite early today and i did not put on my glasses. i was scanning through my bed and hold on to a black stuff which i thought was my phone.

however, it did not feel as solid as it should be. instead it was jelly-ish like. guess what it is?

I will upload the answer soon or once i found out how to upload pictures to blogs via iphone! :)

5 days before ending the medical school

Hi all.

Here i am, blogging when i should have been revising instead.

What can i say. Revising can be boring and as older i get, the less time i can concentrate.

i do miss the old, nerdy me when i could memorise tonnes of fact without struggle. perhaps my RAM is getting rusty.

As i am bout to end my medical school (provided that i PASS the final exam), i have a feeling i am gonna miss the student's life. Though i can say my uni's life is not as great as i imagined it would be, i learnt quite a lot especially on that of life.

here, i understand the term of independence and responsibility. it's not easy and there are times i wish i can run away from all those burdens but thank God, i remained strong and here i am today, at the age of 23, getting closer to get my MBBS degree.

okay, enough with the melancholic post. other thing that i want to mention is i miss blogging.

i miss writing down my thoughts, my feelings and my life. however, i haven't got much inspiration and motivation and i blame it on a lil depression that i have in me (i think).

well, i hope i can be active again after the end of med school. well, we'll see about that!

wish me luck dearies for my final exams!

night shot of the Tower bridge. taken during my london vacation trip. i miss it already!