In less than 2 months' time, i will be 25 years old. Oh God, it is creepy knowing the fact that you are growing older than you realise. It feels like i was only 20 years old. Sometimes I wonder where have my past 5 years been left to.
However, Alhamdulillah, God has been great to me. My life is moving in line with the plans; to get a medical degree and to earn a living. I am now a houseman a.k.a junior doctor and has been working for more than 1 year. I am now a young and independent woman. I can now pay for my own rent, buy my favourite stuffs (handbags and shoes!) and eat what ever I like. I can also pay for my parents' dinner and sometimes treat them with surprises especially when they come down to visit me in Miri.
Despite that, I do not consider myself as a successful person since I know I am still lacking in some other aspects of life. One must never be satisfied with their achievements and must strive further. Life is getting harder as you grow up and that is a challenge for us all. However, it is also to be reminded that we should be thankful for everything that God has granted to us. Never forget your creator.
Nevertheless, I also realise that there are still other weaknesses that I have not found ways to combat them. It's true. Old habits die hard. Sometimes, I struggle with myself just so I can change into a better person. Things around you can be demotivating and hence making you to lose hope. Hence, there were times that i give up easily and that can worsen the situation.
Sometimes I wish I can turn back the hands on time just so to make my life a little less complicated. However, if you ask whether there is anything that I wish to erase and re-do in the past, well, I do not think so. Without all those, I do not think that things will end up the way I am today.
