another one...

20 months have passed.

but yet i still have difficulty in understanding him.

it is still even harder for me to trust him completely.

will he breaks my heart if i open up my heart to him?

should i surrender fully to him?

i should be lucky to be with a guy whom stood by me through the ups and downs.

i should be grateful the fact that im with this guy who is different in compared to the rest.

he has all the qualities that girls would die for.

but why do i still look for more?

why am i not satisfied with this?

i must be crazy. i must be.