Hollow

I am currently stuck in making decisions on a fate.

It has been days but i still have inconsistent answers.

I tried to talk to a few people for this matter but i dont think the ubderstand a thing on it.

Am i just being overly concerned or perhaps, being selfish?

Or maybe i went overboard about it and could not control my hatred.

A part of me wants to let go but im worried of the consequences.

Gaaaaahhhh. I just dont know what to do. This is supposed to be my holiday but i dont think my minds are resting.

Sent from Hanani's iPhone! Woo!

another new chapter

since i've finished medical school and currently waiting for the placement in Hospital Miri, i need to start packing. Cyberjaya and Miri requires a 2.5 hours flight and it is not accessible via land. that means, it is crucial for me not to miss any important things behind.

despite that, i am still not certain about Betty's fate. I have been too emotionally attached to her that i am a bit worried that i might need her to survive housemanship. furthermore, i am not quite convinced that my brother can take good of her physically as well as emotionally. she's quite a diva u see.

im torn between to leave her in Cyberjaya, or to bring it along to Miri. last option will be to let her stay at my parents' place in Brunei. each one has pros and cons that in the end, i still cannot decide where will the best place for her be.

another troublesome hurdle is the documentation and price. in order for me to export her, i need to get certain approval letters from the Animal Dept which requires time too. and the cargo has specified that i need to get appropriate cage for transportation.

i can list on and on for this matter but in the end, im still back to square one; clueless and at the same time, sad. if only she is a little mouse. then perhaps i can sneak her in my pockets. ahh, i dont think i want another pet after Betty.

so happy together!

Dewey

Since it is the holiday, ive been taking this opportunity to read books. it is quite refreshing to be able to read texts that are non medical related. even said that, i still have that slight tinge of guilt for reading these kinds of books. deep down, my mind tells me to update myself with medical knowledge.

oh well, i think that can wait. so as of for now, ive just finished reading this book. it was recommended by Azy, my batchmate and i borrowed it from the uni's library. it's about a cat, named Dewey Readmore Books, which managed to capture the world as a library cat. it's based on true story. since i have a pet, i couldnt help but to think of the resemblance of Dewey with my Betty Diva. However, i gotta admit, the last chapters of Dewey made me cry.

pic by http://www.booktrailersforreaders.com

i am not sure whether i can handle if Betty is gone one day. i know some day, this will come true. she's been around for almost a year now and she means a lot to me. the fact that i'll be going to Miri, im not sure whether i can stand not having her around. however, after reading this book, im more determined to have her as long as I can. i wanna be by her side, going thru the days together.

u get some, u lose some

have u ever been in a situation where you are receiving something, and yet you yearn for something else. but once you are given the opportunity of having that something else, you miss the former ones.

well, i think that's the human nature. you are never satisfied with the things that you have. you have various of wants and you wish to have as many as you can. only when you lose that something, you start to appreciate it.

is this healthy?

well, life is full of satisfactions and at the same time, regrets.

urgh.. complicated indeed.

i miss the life i had once.

Every woman's fantasy

I've just finished watching Breakfast At Tiffany's, the famous film featuring the classic beauty Audrey Hepburn.

All i can say, i was mesmerised by her beauty throughout the movie. Simple make ups and elegant clothes were used and she looked stunning! She did not even have to reveal her skin fully and im sure the guys are fascinated with her too!

I guess our new generations should start watching these kinds of movies to reflect back on our current situations. Perhaps the young girls would start having decent clothes since they no longer idolising popstars such as GaGa.

Meanwhile, i am extremely addicted to the movie's theme song; Moon River. I wish to have this song played at my wedding! (soothing melody but i cant really understand the lyrics)

Troublesome Lock

my colourful padlocks! i wish i had them during my JIS locker days!

As a traveller, one should always be careful with their luggages. One of the vital equipments for this purpose is the lock. Some prefer to use the ordinary type of lock with its keys attached. While some who like numbers will go for the code lock. The most typical problem with the latter is forgetting the access numbers.

So, as a reminder, i will dedicate this post for myself, on how to set the access codes, as well as on how to change the access code (assuming you do not forget the former in the first place!)

TO SET THE CODE

1. set to 000 (this is the usual code for new lock)

2. release the lock

3. press reset button

4. set the access number

5. release the reset button

TO CHANGE THE ACCESS CODE

1. Set to your previous access code

2. release the lock

3. hold Reset button

4. while doing so, change the dial to your new access code

5. release the reset button once you are done with it

another lost this year...

today, i received another shocking story. a friend of mine, who was also my senior back in SMSSA died due to a motor vehicle accident. i was not really a close friend of his, but the common thing that brought us as friends was our birthday. each year, we never failed to greet each other. we were also prefects back then and we shared the same mutual friends.

this isnt the only death news that i encounter this year. a few months back, my friend's brother also died due to a motor vehicle accident. that made it 2 this year. Oh God, please give safety to all my friends and family. it hurt to see the lost of a person that we know.

indirectly, this tells me to always be extra careful while driving. if you are the driver, please be also reminded that you have to be responsible for your passengers' lifes! you don't want to be blamed for the lost of others. so whenever you think of doing stupid things on the road, think twice!

Al-Fatihah to Aliff Ramlan. May he rest in peace and be placed with others Mukmin. Amin.