OMG. it's 28th November 2009!
Wait! Does this mean, we're closer to end 2009?
Wow! We are really chasing against time. We are aging faster than we thought and growing older than we realise it.
Nevertheless, i still feel like a young adult, needing to learn a lot more on life. I need to control my emotions as well as to think more maturely in preparation for the reality.
I am also close to graduating as a doctor, Insyaallah. I hope the route to that goal will not be too difficult for me.
I hope life will be easy on me.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Thursday, November 26, 2009
beautiful minds
ive just started my 1st week of Psychiatry. Prior to entering the posting, i've heard tonnes of unfavourable stories being told by the previous Psychiatry groupmates. I have to say most of them were pointed towards the negative aspects of it. As a girl, i am already a risk factor for this posting.
1st day past by and we had our 1st orientation to the Psychiatry department in HKL. We started of with the clinic and the test began right away. We bumped into an Indian elderly man who was taking prescriptions at the counter. Upon seeing us in white lab coats, he right away gave us a salutation and mumbled few unheard words. Thank God, he didn't do anything beyond that.
Then, we were brought to the MAIN ENTRANCE of the Psychiatric Ward where the "best" things usually occurred. An eerie sensation crept immediately and some of us, especially the girls were palpitating hard and loudly. To me, it was worse than facing my OSCE exams in every 2 months!
As we were walking in a big group of 20 slowly into the male ward, the patients right away stopped doing their business and their attention were immediately drawn to us. We saw about 2/3 male patients queued up and shook with each one of us. The funny thing was that, they kissed the girls' hands but not with the gentlemen. I could feel the lips touching on my hand and it was TERRIFYING!
It was funny to see their behaviours and at the same time, listening to their stories. One thing, i am absolutely amazed with their creativities and imaginations that they have in. If they were to be film directors, i am sure their movies can be one of the box-offices. Nevertheless, i cant help but to feel pity towards them. All they need is attention, acceptance and Love.
1st day past by and we had our 1st orientation to the Psychiatry department in HKL. We started of with the clinic and the test began right away. We bumped into an Indian elderly man who was taking prescriptions at the counter. Upon seeing us in white lab coats, he right away gave us a salutation and mumbled few unheard words. Thank God, he didn't do anything beyond that.
Then, we were brought to the MAIN ENTRANCE of the Psychiatric Ward where the "best" things usually occurred. An eerie sensation crept immediately and some of us, especially the girls were palpitating hard and loudly. To me, it was worse than facing my OSCE exams in every 2 months!
As we were walking in a big group of 20 slowly into the male ward, the patients right away stopped doing their business and their attention were immediately drawn to us. We saw about 2/3 male patients queued up and shook with each one of us. The funny thing was that, they kissed the girls' hands but not with the gentlemen. I could feel the lips touching on my hand and it was TERRIFYING!
It was funny to see their behaviours and at the same time, listening to their stories. One thing, i am absolutely amazed with their creativities and imaginations that they have in. If they were to be film directors, i am sure their movies can be one of the box-offices. Nevertheless, i cant help but to feel pity towards them. All they need is attention, acceptance and Love.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
post-exam ENT
this post would be useful for my other half who will be doing Specialty posting next.
and so, it was done.
i was the 3rd person to go for the exam from group B. it was on a volunteer basis and i would usually be the type who couldnt wait to get it done FAST. well, there is no point to wait longer rite? it doesnt make much of difference and why waste all the adrenaline for hours for the exams! it's either u know it or you don't. that easy.
so there were 2 short cases and 1 long case in the ENT clinic.
1. Short case - Mr Mohammad - Bilateral Chronic tonsillitis.
This guy asked a lot of questions that made me feel dumb and regret for not studying properly the night before. Did mouth examination on this patient. Questions were as such :
1. complications of tonsillitis
2. Criteria for admission for patient with tonsillitis
3. management for patient coming in with fever, sore throat, swallowing problem presenting in ED.
4. indication for tonsillectomy
5. OSA
2. Short case - Mr Har - Chronic Rhinitis with Inferior turbinate hypertrophy
This post was more do-able than the previous one. Mr Har was nice and always with a smile. i think i did better here than post 1. Did nose examination. he didnt comment much.
1. difference between turbinate hypertrophy and nasal polyps.
2. management for patient with rhinitis (medical and surgical)
3. suggest examination after anterior rhinoscopy. --> the answer is SCOPE and followed posterior rhinoscopy and Ear and Throat examination -.-;;;
3. Long case - Dr Ashwaq - Chronic Otitis Media (Tubotympanic)
Well, interesting case. Chronic bilateral hearing loss with otorrhea and she had a history of trauma. was only given 15 minutes to clerk her but i tend to spend too long socialising with patient. physical examination was done of the ear + otoscope examination. forgot to do hearing test but Dr Ashwaq was being nice and she reminded me. PHEWWW...
1. present the case. dont forget to inform whether any otitis media complications were present.
2. reasons for the diagnosis
3. showed a tmpanometry chart and PTA chart. didnt know i have to know this =(
all in all, i hope i gain marks here. this marks the end of the Specialty posting.
Hello Psychiatry! i hope i can learn myself better there.
and so, it was done.
i was the 3rd person to go for the exam from group B. it was on a volunteer basis and i would usually be the type who couldnt wait to get it done FAST. well, there is no point to wait longer rite? it doesnt make much of difference and why waste all the adrenaline for hours for the exams! it's either u know it or you don't. that easy.
so there were 2 short cases and 1 long case in the ENT clinic.
1. Short case - Mr Mohammad - Bilateral Chronic tonsillitis.
This guy asked a lot of questions that made me feel dumb and regret for not studying properly the night before. Did mouth examination on this patient. Questions were as such :
1. complications of tonsillitis
2. Criteria for admission for patient with tonsillitis
3. management for patient coming in with fever, sore throat, swallowing problem presenting in ED.
4. indication for tonsillectomy
5. OSA
2. Short case - Mr Har - Chronic Rhinitis with Inferior turbinate hypertrophy
This post was more do-able than the previous one. Mr Har was nice and always with a smile. i think i did better here than post 1. Did nose examination. he didnt comment much.
1. difference between turbinate hypertrophy and nasal polyps.
2. management for patient with rhinitis (medical and surgical)
3. suggest examination after anterior rhinoscopy. --> the answer is SCOPE and followed posterior rhinoscopy and Ear and Throat examination -.-;;;
3. Long case - Dr Ashwaq - Chronic Otitis Media (Tubotympanic)
Well, interesting case. Chronic bilateral hearing loss with otorrhea and she had a history of trauma. was only given 15 minutes to clerk her but i tend to spend too long socialising with patient. physical examination was done of the ear + otoscope examination. forgot to do hearing test but Dr Ashwaq was being nice and she reminded me. PHEWWW...
1. present the case. dont forget to inform whether any otitis media complications were present.
2. reasons for the diagnosis
3. showed a tmpanometry chart and PTA chart. didnt know i have to know this =(
all in all, i hope i gain marks here. this marks the end of the Specialty posting.
Hello Psychiatry! i hope i can learn myself better there.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
the end is near
i have 1 week left before i finish my 1st posting of the year 4. In a way, im not looking forward with the next posting since i've heard a lot of... erm, spine-chilling stories about pyschiatric patients. Other than that, after seeing the other half's mad life with the assignments further made me not wanting to leave the current Specialty posting of mine.
As always, the end of every posting will FIRST be celebrated with tonnes of reading assignments for the TESTS. it's weird that somehow, that word no longer has its effects on me. back then, i used to be a nerdy girl who would sacrifice 1 week of her TV shows or Internet for revision. then, Nescafe would be my 2nd bestfriend and books would ultimately replace my bed and pillows. i used to be able memorising a text book and would not be satisfied until i make sure that i had covered every single page in the book. those were the days. *sigh*
apparently, i now feel old and i have a feeling that my brain is also draining out. my brain processing power is slower and memorising takes ages to be done. i get distracted easily and worst to that is i tend to sleep more a few days before exams. NOT A GOOD TIMING, NANI!
my 1st exam will be on this Tuesday noon. The following day, i will be facing my radiology test and followed by ENT OSCE on Thursday. Right now, i am ANTICIPATING Thursday nite instead. oh time, i wish u can travel FASTER!
so, here i am, procrastinating my revision by YOUTUBING, FACEBOOKING and BLOGGING. bleargh. keep your spirit high nani. don't you want to repeat the majestic eras of yours? don't you want to prove to those people that someone as crazy and social as you can still do well in the exams?
well, i do not think my uni is impressed. OH WELL.
As always, the end of every posting will FIRST be celebrated with tonnes of reading assignments for the TESTS. it's weird that somehow, that word no longer has its effects on me. back then, i used to be a nerdy girl who would sacrifice 1 week of her TV shows or Internet for revision. then, Nescafe would be my 2nd bestfriend and books would ultimately replace my bed and pillows. i used to be able memorising a text book and would not be satisfied until i make sure that i had covered every single page in the book. those were the days. *sigh*
apparently, i now feel old and i have a feeling that my brain is also draining out. my brain processing power is slower and memorising takes ages to be done. i get distracted easily and worst to that is i tend to sleep more a few days before exams. NOT A GOOD TIMING, NANI!
my 1st exam will be on this Tuesday noon. The following day, i will be facing my radiology test and followed by ENT OSCE on Thursday. Right now, i am ANTICIPATING Thursday nite instead. oh time, i wish u can travel FASTER!
so, here i am, procrastinating my revision by YOUTUBING, FACEBOOKING and BLOGGING. bleargh. keep your spirit high nani. don't you want to repeat the majestic eras of yours? don't you want to prove to those people that someone as crazy and social as you can still do well in the exams?
well, i do not think my uni is impressed. OH WELL.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
2012 movie review
watched it last nite at the Curve, Damansara. at first, i didnt really feel like watching this movie since the thought of having to see the world ends is a bit horrifying. however, since there were not many interesting movies played this week, i decided to have a go on it.
scheduled show was supposed to be at 12.35am. however, i found out that the movie only started at about 1.
so, in summary, go and watch this movie if you dont mind cheesy storylines but with breathtaking movie effects. though it was already late in the morning, i didnt feel sleepy at all since the adrenaline rush was surreal. it made u wish that u would never be there to witness the apocalypse.
however, i have to admit, there were tonnes of illogical scenes that made you eventually wonder the rating of this movie on the ever-popular movie critics website; rotten tomatoes. the ending was.... too good to be true but oh well.... expected. you can pretty guess it along the way.
since it was a 2 hour and 30 minute movie, i ended up going back home at about 4 in the morning.
overall rating : 65% (hey, this is still high in compared to the one in rotten tomatoes (36%))
Thursday, November 12, 2009
freakazoid!
have u ever encountered a weird person in your life? someone that u notice his/her behaviour is somehow, different and a bit abnormal?
so, what would your reaction be when u bump into this person? do you feel like isolating and making fun of him/her all the time? or perhaps, you try to be an angel and feels pity for that person and hence, helping him around and be his friend. OR, you could be the OTHER kind who feels good after humiliating him and telling people about all the peculiar events that occur?
i have encountered several people with such weird behaviours since my middle school till my current uni. and honestly, i can sometimes be heartless and be the "mean" type of girl. at one point i can just point out some painful sarcastic remarks if ever the person irritates or annoys the shit out of me. but then, i can also come to my senses and hence, defending him when others try to mock him.
come to think of it, i do have high tolerancy for people with such unique behaviours. give them to me and i can still work with these kind of people despite of their flaws. sometimes, it is saddening to see on how some colleagues of mine totally isolate him and enjoy gossiping with the rest about funny or weird events that were caused by this person every single day.
however, i do notice that people like these are the ones who are terrified with this unlucky person. they will try to do anything so that the person does not sit next to them in class for instance. perhaps they are "too cool" to be seen around with this person.
well, this comes to the question of affective domain. i think my uni's system is bad with this. somehow, this practise has turned us into a judgmental person in deciding people who are good and bad. due to the grading system, one single mistake is strong enough to make people to grade you less. what happens to the term of "forgiving and accepting people"? what is even worse is that the lecturers are also biased when it comes to judging people.
i guess what the system should has been is to learn on how to accept people's behaviour and learn on how to improve them instead of degrading them with marks.
so, what would your reaction be when u bump into this person? do you feel like isolating and making fun of him/her all the time? or perhaps, you try to be an angel and feels pity for that person and hence, helping him around and be his friend. OR, you could be the OTHER kind who feels good after humiliating him and telling people about all the peculiar events that occur?
i have encountered several people with such weird behaviours since my middle school till my current uni. and honestly, i can sometimes be heartless and be the "mean" type of girl. at one point i can just point out some painful sarcastic remarks if ever the person irritates or annoys the shit out of me. but then, i can also come to my senses and hence, defending him when others try to mock him.
come to think of it, i do have high tolerancy for people with such unique behaviours. give them to me and i can still work with these kind of people despite of their flaws. sometimes, it is saddening to see on how some colleagues of mine totally isolate him and enjoy gossiping with the rest about funny or weird events that were caused by this person every single day.
however, i do notice that people like these are the ones who are terrified with this unlucky person. they will try to do anything so that the person does not sit next to them in class for instance. perhaps they are "too cool" to be seen around with this person.
well, this comes to the question of affective domain. i think my uni's system is bad with this. somehow, this practise has turned us into a judgmental person in deciding people who are good and bad. due to the grading system, one single mistake is strong enough to make people to grade you less. what happens to the term of "forgiving and accepting people"? what is even worse is that the lecturers are also biased when it comes to judging people.
i guess what the system should has been is to learn on how to accept people's behaviour and learn on how to improve them instead of degrading them with marks.
Saturday, November 07, 2009
losing faith
slowly this is killing me.
im fighting hard to go through this but i hope my patience won't run dry.
let me remind you, i am just like everybody else, with limitation in my patience.
lame reasonings are something that is unacceptable.
im fighting hard to go through this but i hope my patience won't run dry.
let me remind you, i am just like everybody else, with limitation in my patience.
lame reasonings are something that is unacceptable.
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
latest sensation!
i have known this guy since 10 things i hate about you. Since Heath Ledger has left us for almost 2 years now, (it's still tragic to me!) i have found someone who can replace him. well, i don't think replace is the right word since Heath Ledger is NOT replaceable. he's one of a kind. Before his death, ive watched most of his movies and yes, a definite heartthrob i tell you. i still have those butterfly moments whenever i think back of his scenes in those moments.
well, without further ado, let me introduce you to this OTHER guy. in a way, he kinda looks like the late Heath Ledger. I think im easily fall for guys with prominent cheek bones with a cute smile and those cheeky small eyes. *aaaaaaaaaa
mind that, he's already 28! a baby face hotness!
*melting*
well, without further ado, let me introduce you to this OTHER guy. in a way, he kinda looks like the late Heath Ledger. I think im easily fall for guys with prominent cheek bones with a cute smile and those cheeky small eyes. *aaaaaaaaaa
mind that, he's already 28! a baby face hotness!
*melting*Monday, November 02, 2009
time aku stress
aku baru tau bah. the best way for me to release my anger is by speaking in malay brunei.
lurus plg tu. bisdurang nda jua merati. dpt tah aku kan bekurapak or mengucap2 mun aku sasak.
indirectly, release plg tu eh.
betuah si nani ani coz dpt duduk di brunei. in a way, i wish aku dpt speaking french jua. lagi tiah babau org mendangar.
lurus plg tu. bisdurang nda jua merati. dpt tah aku kan bekurapak or mengucap2 mun aku sasak.
indirectly, release plg tu eh.
betuah si nani ani coz dpt duduk di brunei. in a way, i wish aku dpt speaking french jua. lagi tiah babau org mendangar.
love-hate relationship
it has been almost a year that i have this blog. so i wonder whether this blog has been discovered by my friends or is it still considered as anonymous to many? either way, i do not mind. i want my trusted friends to discover this blog so that i can share my feelings and view with them.
on the other side, it is those UNWORTHY people that im trying to isolate from. i am scared that my blog contents can backfire me back. I have heard so much about some of the people who idiotically talked about other people's personal lives to the lecturers. what they do not know is that, their actions can greatly affect the victims emotionally and perhaps, their future. ive seen some of my colleagues were forced to get married due to complains and stories told to the lecturers. maybe it's for a good deed, i agree but i think it's best not to be involved with such stuff. don;t they think further of what the victims' family would feel? well, maybe all they ever care is to be loved by the lecturers for the "responsibility" that they had accomplished.
and hence, this is why i DO NOT trust ANY of my colleagues. as much as i want to, i guess it's for the best. sacrifice is bitter at times, but that's what u gotta do in order to survive. other applicable methods that i have been practising is to be a super hypocrite and a talented actress.
be nice or ur dead.
on the other side, it is those UNWORTHY people that im trying to isolate from. i am scared that my blog contents can backfire me back. I have heard so much about some of the people who idiotically talked about other people's personal lives to the lecturers. what they do not know is that, their actions can greatly affect the victims emotionally and perhaps, their future. ive seen some of my colleagues were forced to get married due to complains and stories told to the lecturers. maybe it's for a good deed, i agree but i think it's best not to be involved with such stuff. don;t they think further of what the victims' family would feel? well, maybe all they ever care is to be loved by the lecturers for the "responsibility" that they had accomplished.
and hence, this is why i DO NOT trust ANY of my colleagues. as much as i want to, i guess it's for the best. sacrifice is bitter at times, but that's what u gotta do in order to survive. other applicable methods that i have been practising is to be a super hypocrite and a talented actress.
be nice or ur dead.
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