don't let me down again...

it's already week 3 of the posting and that means i have only 1 week more to end it. indirectly, this means that i will be facing the end of posting exam as well! bleargh. revision revision. here we go again.

since im currently shining well in the ophthalmology posting, im afraid that last year's incident might be happening again. during my last surgery posting, i was very much considered as a very good student. i managed to answer most of the questions bombed by Dr Ahmed. unfortunately, i flunked out in my OSCE examination. it was the most horrifying exams ever. my answers were like shitholes, pushing myself deeper into the ground each time i uttered words out. by the end of the session, Dr Ahmed had this very disappointing look upon his face after seeing how horrible my performance was. BLEARGH BLEARGH.
looking on the brighter side, he told me that i did way way better in my theory written test. (he did mention that fact to me!) but nevertheless, i was very disappointed with myself. it was like giving a false hope to the others and only to find out that you failed miserably to impress them..

so this time i do not want to let the lecturers down. so far, i think im in a good position. i participated well in the class. lecturers know my name and i kinda asked quite a lot of questions in class. (im sorry groupies! :p) the ultimate thing for me now is to PRACTISE AND PRACTISE a gazzilion times for the OSCE. i must appear confident with my answers as well as with my techniques.

i want to prove to the other lecturers that i am just simply not like the rest. I have a unique personality and i can be a good student despite being different than the others. oh God, please help me out. i need a lot of your guidance.

YOU CAN DO IT!!