Fireworks

I notice that I can be a pretty pessimist. I like to thing of the worst case scenario in order to make me prepare mentally. In a way, i think i inherit this gift from my parents.

Since i am starting housemanship really soon, i have already made my mindset that i will be undergoing 2 years of shitty life, facing challenging patients as well as working with difficult colleagues. I am expecting to be running around and only to have meals by the end of the days.

My parents think that i think and worry too much. But i think i can already expect how my life will be considering the fact that i have been spending 3 years in hospitals for my clinical trainings. I've seen the tired face of the housemen. we are all humans; to put up an energetic face after working for 24 hours in a busy hospital seems a little absurd to me.

I know there will definitely be ups and downs. I hope i remain strong and always pray hard to God to ensure i never lose my faith in this career. May there be lights, at the end of the tunnels. I guess, i need to sing "Fireworks" by Katy Perry for motivations!

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