runaway

few days before i leave to KL i would usually have the uneasy feelings. it's not that i do not enjoy KL life. instead it's all the hassle that i have to go through in order to live the day. as everyone knows, i have a boyfriend. just like any other ordinary youngsters or human beings, we cant escape from one. eventually, your turn will flies in. and hence, ur love life starts.

of course, once you are in a relationship, you wanna colour it with as many interesting events as possible. once you have good or interesting news, it's a human nature tthat you wanna share with the people nearby.

unfortunately, i am in a surrounding which cannot accept some ways of doing things. and hence, i cant. thus, i am living a refugee life. running away, afraid of being spotted. sometimes, u have to come out with lies intelligently. i guess the safest way for me is not to be close to any human beings around me. i do not want people to backstab or perhaps to abuse my "trust" on them.

you are scared with what would they perceive you as. you are scared that this perception can affect your marks, academically as well as your dignity. i dont know how long i can handle this. i just cant wait for it to be over.

it's true. i like to reminisce about the past. i cant seem to let go of the past. whenever i think of it, it makes me to smile and at least, ease the conflicts inside me.

young and free. those 3 words seem to be obsolete in my dictionary.

it's time to rot.