show me the light...

honestly, i am such an insecure person. i know i have a very kind and nice boyfriend whom loyalty cannot be underestimated. he really reminds me of the loyalty that i have been showing all this while. however, i have this one principle that environment can greatly changes u.

i am surrounded by people who cant seem to remain truthful and loyal to their partners. yea, as a normal human being, im sure it can be really difficult to do so. you can easily be influenced with your friends and emotions. one moment you feel that you would do anything for your loved ones, the next second you know, you withdraw that task cause somebody else has talked to you about their experience.

and this is why am always cautious with my current relationship. i noe it's not fair for having this mentality that everyone is the same. i am sure that he is not as the rest and hence, i need to appreciate him more. that is why...i need the light to stay strong in this matter.

i have experienced this hurtful event. i can still imagine the heartache that was felt after finding out the person whom u trust all this while actually has splitted his feelings for two women at the same time. i know there's a saying that sharing is caring but it's not that way when it comes to love. as a woman, i still cannot accept the Islamic rule that mentioned man can have up to 4 wives. but deep down inside, i noe this law is justified.

if he is ever reading this post, i just want him to tell him not to change who he is. stay who you are as now and keep your love and care for me as it is =)