it sucks to be an alien in your own country

well, i can consider myself lucky for what i have got. im a malaysian but ive been living in Brunei for almost throughout my life. im sure there are some people who wanna be in my shoes but nevertheless, there is a price to be paid.

once you are on your own, back to where you "should" belong, you begin to lose the things that you treasure before. you feel as if you're lost. u miss the way things back then. friendship is one of the things. currently, im in this situation where i just dunno whether the people around me can be trust-able and accepting me the way i am. It is never easy to be considered as a minority. you do wanna try to open up but you just don't dare to face the consequences. You have the options of either to change the way you are and adapt with the situation or be heck with them, i should keep my "let-me-lead life the-way-i-want-it-to-be" attitude. but then, i know, the majority is on the right track and they will benefit way more than me.

should i just continue life this way or should i put down my white flags and march on with the rest?

God, i pray for your strength. help me along to make this life, a bit easier on me.