two becomes one

ever since last year, im surrounded with friends whom were getting hitched. what made things worse was the release of the "fairytale wedding of the year video" by one of the Malaysia's famous businessman's daughter last year and the global coverage of the Royal Wedding of Kate and William 2 months back.

honestly, with all the madness, it did make me feel as if i am left behind with the trails and sometimes, the fact that i am still single, i feel "expired" though i am only 23 years old! since i am also in a relationship, i cant help but to question when is my turn going to be?

looking on the bright side, i am however glad the fact that none of my closest girl friends have initiated this path. at least the pressure is less, we have each other to look up for and we do not feel left out.

apart from that, i think i can relate to men better when it comes to this situation. i can now understand why they hate it when their girlfriends' found out that his male buddies are getting married. the girls will be envious and will start to question the poor boyfriends about their turn. i have met some of the girls who became quite obsessed to get married and in the end, pressuring their partners and get disappointed after finding out that they dont have the same views on it.

well, i used to have different stands on this matter. i was up for it since i thought how different could it be if i were to get married now since i already felt that we are more or less like a married couple afterall. we spend most of our possible time and do various activities together. furthermore, i thought getting married would enable us to save more money since we will be able to live together, and hence, cutting down other unnecessary expenses and finally be happy together.

however, i realised that the reasons why people are rushed into marriage is because of peer pressure and also because they are lured to think that marriage = a wedding ceremony + eternal happiness. i forgot that we are living in a real world and we cannot afford to overlook the baggages that it carries such as responsibilities, having the needs to satisfy your parents and the in-laws, the sacrifices and having children.

hence, with all these facts, i feel that i am in no rush for this commitment. i am only 23 years old; my parents got married at the age of 26-27. so, i better be making full use of my available single years, concentrate on my careers and plan on my futures. furthermore, I'm sure God has already planned out everything for me. Just have faith in Him.